我仿佛又回到了前世永巷外罚跪的时候<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>无边的孤寂和痛苦像海水一样密密的淹没了我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>那年春天<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>我穿着单衣襦裙<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>膝盖就这么隔着薄薄的布料印在青石板上<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>如今<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>虽然我的膝盖被袄裤保护着<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>但是那青石板下透出来的幽寒和清冷<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>深深的渗入了我的骨髓中<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>
再过半个时辰<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>皇上就要早朝了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>我从最初的慌乱无措里清醒过来<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>我知道<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>郑贵妃不会让我见到皇上的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>更不会指太医给我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>
顺喜儿站在我身后<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>我问：“皇后那里如何了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>”他带着哭音说道：“说皇后病情反复<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>太医一时没法离开<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>”
刘有余看着我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>道：“娘娘<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>咱们还是回去吧<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>”
我不答<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>又问：“玉儿怎么样了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>”
顺喜儿道：“安姑姑正给殿下擦身子降温<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>殿下还在睡着……娘娘<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>要不您回去看看吧<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>您在这儿跪着<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>也……也不是个事儿啊<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>”
我双腿麻木<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>早已起不来了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>可是我并没有打算起来<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>他不是不肯见我吗<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>那我就一直跪着<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>跪到他出来见我为止<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>
事到如今<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>我才觉得自己是多么的渺小<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>渺小到连自己最珍视的儿子深处危险中<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>而我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>却只能跪在夹杂着雪粒子的寒风里苦苦哀求<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>
天空依旧是黑暗的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>漆黑的像幕布一样笼盖在皇城之上<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>仿佛<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>看不到光明<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>
五更了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>关雎宫的门再次被打开<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>身穿玄色朝服的帝王眉宇间带着一丝疲惫走了出来<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>
我扑倒在地<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558098.png)'></span>只有用爬才能到他面前去<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>
他看到我却十分吃惊<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>扶着我的双臂问道：“阿娆<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>你这是怎么了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>”
早已酸涩的眼眶再次瞩满了泪水<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>我哀求着说道：“请皇上开宫门<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>臣妾要找太医去救救玉儿<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>”
“玉儿怎么了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>”他问<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>
他竟然不知道<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>他竟然不知道<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>我撕心裂肺的哭喊道：“玉儿快死了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>他就要死了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>”我胸中剧痛<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>“嗤”的喷出一口鲜血<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>我倒在他怀里<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>眼前黑乎乎的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>什么也看不见<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>我咽下喉头的血腥<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>呢喃道：“我……我也要死了……”我失去了意识<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>但我终于等到他来见我了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>终于等到太医前去救我的玉儿<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>
我并没有晕过去太久<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>只因心中还担心着玉儿<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>我一醒来就要下床去看玉儿<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>可是我竟然挪动不了我的双腿<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>谷雨抱住我说：“娘娘不要动<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>您的腿受寒很严重<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>太医说您必须休息<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>皇上也不让您动<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>”
“玉儿呢<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>玉儿怎么样了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>”我抓住她<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>不停的问道<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>
谷雨忙道：“太医们都在诊治呢<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>娘娘不要担心<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>皇上派人去请沈太医回来了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>殿下肯定不会有事的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>”
“我……我要去看看玉儿……”我挣扎着想要起身<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>
启恒却走了进来<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>阻止道：“阿娆<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>你不要动<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>太医说你的腿伤得很重<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>要是不小心处理恐怕会……”
“玉儿到底怎么样了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>”我才不要管我的腿<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>我只想知道我的玉儿如何了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558109.png)'></span>
启恒沉默着<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>片刻后说道：“太医正看着<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>你不要太担心了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>朕已经召了沈七进宫<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>他一向给你和玉儿诊脉的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352127/12786725/5229748075063587131.png)'></span>应该了解玉儿的体质<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923573216.png)'></span>”
“玉儿……玉儿退烧了没有<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349144352122/12786725/-29048913923558083.png)'></span>”